Weekly Wellness 3/10/2021

"Looking back, we are the luckiest people in the world. There was no choice but to be pioneers; no time to be beginners" - Margaret H. Hamilton

This is a hard week to write a Weekly Wellness. This week marks one year of the pandemic in the United States. As I sit trying to write this, my thoughts and emotions are scattered.

I see the faces of people who died alone in the hospital. I see their family members' faces, when I tell them their loved one died, and no, they can't come back and see them due to the virus.

I see my own face, crying on my way home from work, scared I'm going to bring coronavirus home to my family. I feel proud that I still woke up every day and went to work with a positive attitude.

I feel anxiety, remembering the feeling of another call on the radio that a young person was coming in with severe respiratory distress, unsure if I'd be able to save them, trying to remember what new recommendation was put out that day for how to manage the ventilator.

I feel pride that I was a very small part of helping the world through this pandemic.

I feel lucky to have met and gotten so close to so many people I work with. A closeness that can't be described with words. A closeness that only can happen when you've experienced something like this together.